i should be sleeping

Dear Blog You will be getting a lot more attention this summer. (as in from me; your writer. I will be making you bigger and better and longer and oh I am just so excited, It's almost 3 am and this is what I am doing instead of studying for my math final, cool story,I know bro :) ... I made that one up myself. I want some coffee) I am slightly excited for that. That is all

Hearts

Hearts are full
Hearts are empty
Hearts alone
Hearts in fear
Hearts that are lost

Hearts that know they are yours
And hearts that wander

Give this heart identity
Show this heart where to go
Make clear the path of righteousness
Light the way of Your will

Permeate your truth
To the depths of the veins,
that make this heart live
Make your love be the lifeline,
that beats for my breath

May Lady Joy,
and Sir Peace
Blanket this heart with their presence

May the hand of God
Hold the hand of this heart's home

Walk with her
Let her know she is never alone

The Lion of Judah will Roar at the sight of danger
Your warriors are prepared for battle
Prepared to war

This heart is
Beautiful
Protected
Valued
Worth fighting for

May this heart be yours?

\Really\

I Just got this email in my inbox from my bible professor. I go to Liberty University. Dr. Love looks like he stepped out of a civil war closet EVERY DAY
he may just be giving guys in the class extra credit if they grow a mustache.
Last class he left telling everyone to be prepared for mustache march
#ilovemyschool


Bibl 110 Guys,

I just got my bodywork for my motorcycle back from the paintshop and could use a hand putting it back together. Let me know if you are a guy who would like to spend the afternoon hanging out at my house this afternoon and giving me a hand? No skills are required. Also, my wife is out of town, so tomorrow night from 8:00-10:00, I thought I would get a few guys together to play Xbox- any takers?

Godspeed,
Professor Love

I'm laughing really hard right now

It is by grace we have been saved, but by choice we walk in the light

Recently I have been thinking about sin, and its relation to our fleshly nature. It is quite obvious that there is sin in this world. As Adam and Eve ate the fruit from the tree of good and evil sin entered this world. However, it is "by grace you have been saved(B) through faith. And this is(C) not your own doing;(D) it is the gift of God," (Ephesians 28) For our own doings is sin, but by God's grace we are saved.

So it is by God's grace we are saved, but as humans we have to make the conscious decision to be saved by grace. To walk in the light of Jesus Christ that he honestly gave his life up for. He DIED , so we could have grace, he died so we could walk in the light!

Now being saved by grace is a fact, but choosing to walk in that isn't always so cut and dry. You see human nature, rather fleshly nature of the delights in sin. While our spirit is SCREAMING no, our flesh is screaming yes. For example, Your flesh is lusting, and really I mean lust happens, and the flesh seems to have no problem with it. But your soul is saying and telling you that lust is wrong, and true joy is in the arms of the father. So instead of lusting why don't we “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation." (Matthew 26:41 a) And we often don't because "The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (Matthew 26:41 b) So our spirit and our God conscious says yes to leaving our sin, and walking on the straight and narrow, however our flesh says no. Our flesh finds comfort in our sin.

The book of Second Peter talks about how "The dog returns to its own vomit, and the sow, after washing herself, returns to wallow in the mire." (2 peter 2:22) And that is often how it is with us as humans. Like a dog we return to our sin instead of returning to "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, and whatever is admirable" (Philippians 4:8)why because as stated earlier, only our spirit is willing but our flesh is weak.
So where is the hope in all of this you may ask? I have just basically said because we are human we sin and we are never going to get out of sin because our flesh likes it too much. NO! There is hope. You see as children of God when we decided to give the devil no power in our life that also gives our flesh no power. And really this whole “fleshly nature” thing has no power because as children of God the devil has no power in our lives.

So it is all about making a decision that seems pretty simple, however in reality sometimes it really isn’t. Who do we give the power in our life? Do we give it to Jesus, our Daddy, or do we give it to the father of lies, the devil. If you’d ask me chilling out with my vomit or rolling around in the mire just after I have washed doesn’t seem like too much fun. So instead I make the daily decision to follow Christ and walk away from my vomit and instead into the forgiving everlasting, protecting and homey arms of my Jesus.

...

I have no new inspiration,
No admirable thoughts
No words of encouragement
No peace and love to be brought

I brought it all
Laid it out on the table
Said my part
Gave myself away
And am left with a lost heart

My heart is not broken
Just has no place to go
It's sitting inbetween the to and fro
Waiting to be picked up
And brought to the better place
Waiting to earnestly seek my father's face

Waiting to be held in his arms
But how do I to get the hands
That hold the world
How do I come to him
Where do I turn?
Is it left or is it right
Is it straight ahead, or a backwards fight
How do I climb out of this valley
When the storms keep crashing down
This is not my destiny
Not where I am meant to be

I am meant to dwell on the mountain top
Where glory and rains and freedom falls
But the terror storms won’t stop

But I will climb
I will fight the weariness
I will battle the rain
For the glory is mine to gain

On a mountain top I will dwell
In the presence of Glory
In the arms of love
And the threshold of eternity

Oh Daughter of God, the KING is ENTHRALLED by your beauty.

Yet again it has been some good while since I have blogged. But coming in inspiration spirts is better than nothing.
I am about to enter a new chapter in my life, but just recently I have been getting to know some people better that live in the general proximity of the town in which I live in. Just a little bit ago, I was able to spend some time with a woman that i ADMIRE, LOOK UP TO, am INSPIRED BY, and who is BEAUTIFUL. It was great to just sit down with out the business of life and just talk about life. Somehow, maybe because we are both women, we started talking about beauty. Oh beauty, how sometimes I can love it but other times I just hate it. Furthermore our conversations lead into the topic of; are we beautiful. OF COURSE the woman I was speaking to IS BEAUTIFUL, but what broke my heart that night, and what I just can't seem to get off my mind, is what she thought of herself. No matter how much I look up to her, how many times people tell her, she doesn't see that she is BEAUTIFUL, yes she may know she is ...pretty... but really she is BEAUTIFUL, she glows, her personality just exudes love for others and care for others. So I told her that she was beautiful, and that even the thought of her not being beautiful is preposterous.
My heart ached. Not just my heart but rather my soul ached. Inside I was crying and I had to fight physical tears. It just made me so sad to know that, there are people in this world that just don’t know that they are gorgeous. The father of lies has infiltrated the lives of women on earth so much. However Father God created us and created us beautifully. Psalm 46:10 basically says: Oh Daughter of God listen to me, The KING is enthralled by your beauty, honour him for he is your Lord. You see the word enthralled, is so much deeper than I first thought. The King is not only attracted to, or made aware of our beauty but he is ENTHRALLED. The dictionary tells me that enthralled means to hold, spellbound, captivate or enslave. So this is what God thinks about his daughters. He is captivated by us, like a spell was on Him (there is no spell there is just his LOVE). And I mean God doesn’t make mistakes he created you fearfully and beautifully and wonderfully.

After thinking about all of this, and realizing what the bible says about God’s beautiful daughters, I kind of feel a little bad. However I feel inspired; or more so determined. ATTENTION WORLD my gears have been ground, I have become ANGRY with the lies of the devil, I am INFURIATED, with how the father of lies has messed with the women of this world. I just get frustrated, at how he plagues the minds of females with guilt, I want to punch him in the face. (sorry that was a lil violent). But really we think we sin, and are then terrible people, we discount our relationship with the Father, because we think we are not good enough. Or our sins are too big, we don’t think we are beautiful. The devil takes delight in all of this. And the world says it’s ok. Because if we are confident and know we are beautiful and walk in that, we may be called conceited. If we live a life where we know we can be forgiven, and our sins are washed away, and where we live with God by our sides. Yes we will be persecuted. But guess what that’s the world and not the Father. The devil, and not the Master. So with all of that, it just makes my desire for God grow stronger, yes my heart aches more, but my passion to change this word for Christ is bigger. I NEVER want any one, let alone the people I love to believe the lies of the enemy. I plan on making it my career, and it already is my life goal to lead a passionate life after Christ as a woman leader to lead the hearts of other women into the LIGHT of JESUS

SO WOMEN
Take heart, I think you are beautiful, all of you. Nothing you have done or ever could do can discount your beauty in God’s eyes.

My heart

Yet again I have not blogged in a while but I am here again.
Today was an interesting day in my life. I can't explain it eloquently, as I don’t know how.
However I saw some people that really mean a lot to me today, women, other women that have lived life and are still living vivaciously. These women inspire me to be better and to be real and to be true. These women know how to show love to others and I look up to them. Women, who have lived their lives and have gone through struggles, have great testimonies and become great mentors. Struggles are a part of life, as is pain emotional and physical. However community, prayer, and conversation are also a part of life. And so is love, so please when someone wants to love you, or show you love, or hug you, or just be there for you when you tears are flowing in copious amounts, let them love you, let your emotions free, and most of all let Pappa love you. So please all of my fellow women out there take heart. There will be a time and a day when your testimony and your prayers will help another and will bless another. Struggles are a part of life but they are not your entire life. Be loved today and know that you are not alone you belong and your past does not define who you are, and every day is a new day to love and be loved
Peace and Love world